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Saturday, January 24, 2009

If you're afraid of being lonely, don't try to be right.

I know it all too well. Yet I am not lonely.

I do, at one time or another, sometimes all at once, piss off most everyone I know.

I do not do it on purpose. I simply have no more room for any more bullshit. My life is full, the tank is slopping...please stop.

The cable goes this weekend. I can't afford it. This frightens me. Time home alone will mean...silence. The only noise what my head can drum up. That is never a good idea.

I need a DVD player, at least.

But I will catch up on my reading, studying comedy, getting to know where it came from, and who paved the way for sick bastards like me...looking for an open mic. Writing material. Trying it out on an empty room. This could get really bizarre.

The good news. Comedy is filled with very disturbed people.

I should fit nicely.

Comedy Samurai. That works.

My new disclaimer...yeah I know.

Okay, the old disclaimer was tired. The ideas were outdated and keeping me stuck in a place I don't want to be now for something more refreshing.

I have recently changed my views regarding women. Seems I had some issues with the fairer sex due to past pain and self- centered fear. (Yes...duh applies.)

I'm done with that.

Being in recovery has helped me change my entire life, perceptions and attitudes. I cannot change my history but I can change my today and my future.

I recently realized that the women I know in recovery are some of the strongest, bravest, most gentle and kind teachers I have ever had. You exemplify integrity and spiritual growth, and I hope you know who you are.

Some may know of my past marital and relationship history and been a participant in them as well. It's past and that's where it the past.

I own my part in those failures but claim no more responsibility in any misery you may be experiencing. I am sorry, but it's time to get off the cross. We need the wood.

Thank you all...