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Saturday, March 19, 2011

Dreams can come true... if we wait long enough.

Just picked up my bike. It's brilliant! (not to mention a sexy little motorcycle) 206 miles on it, great shape, new tires, two extra gas tanks, new helmet, gloves and ballistic nylon/armored jacket (with tags still on them) and all free because two guys chose to get sober and clicked as real friends. The bikes never even been registered, I shall be the first.

Take off the pillion seat, (I ride alone) put on clubman handlebars,get a new battery and registration (and insurance) and I will have the bike I've dreamed of for the past fifteen years. Pretty awesome day, and thanks all around.

My next goal is a place of my own (my job has offered me the option of working from home,) and after that, publish my book before the end of the year. My plan is to have it finished by September 1 and have it sent out by then.
Just have to stay focused, believe and breathe...

Friday, March 11, 2011

That about covers it...

I live to fulfill my own dreams and aspirations. And I do it by my standards. If you find my actions, my intentions, to be wrong, well I'm sorry.

Those are your opinions on my outward appearance. How you see me through your eyes. If you like, I can pluck them out for you.

Maybe then, when you have nothing to judge except me, the real me, we'll be on the same page about things.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

so it begins...

I now have a 343 page manuscript, (double spaced for manuscript submission) with 61 chapters to edit, re-write and flesh out by Sept 1. Writing my blog for three years gave me all the material I need. here goes...oh, fyi, if at one time in my life we interacted, and I said I wouldn't blog about you, I kept my promise. I never said you wouldn't make the book.

My new disclaimer...yeah I know.

Okay, the old disclaimer was tired. The ideas were outdated and keeping me stuck in a place I don't want to be now for something more refreshing.

I have recently changed my views regarding women. Seems I had some issues with the fairer sex due to past pain and self- centered fear. (Yes...duh applies.)

I'm done with that.

Being in recovery has helped me change my entire life, perceptions and attitudes. I cannot change my history but I can change my today and my future.

I recently realized that the women I know in recovery are some of the strongest, bravest, most gentle and kind teachers I have ever had. You exemplify integrity and spiritual growth, and I hope you know who you are.

Some may know of my past marital and relationship history and been a participant in them as well. It's past and that's where it the past.

I own my part in those failures but claim no more responsibility in any misery you may be experiencing. I am sorry, but it's time to get off the cross. We need the wood.

Thank you all...